Recently I went into a therapy appointment and I realized that not only was I in a creative rut, but I had been living in a creative rut for the past few years of running this little old business. You heard me right. I'm sure that if you don't have full fledged imposter syndrome, then you've read about it somewhere on the internet. I've got what my therapist refers to as that amplified. I finish a project and for about 10-15 minutes I believe in it fully. Then slowly, but surely I begin hating it most of the time. My clients, for the most part, are always very pleased with my work. They love it. They never see what I do. Which is great because it means I get to keep my job.Read More
Working for yourself
I've already let social media know how crazy this week has been. If the fact that in pulling my goals over from the February blog post, I deleted the entire thing is any indicator-- then yes. It's been pretty un-great. I don't want to talk about that though. Let's talk about all the great things that happen in March! Like SxSW? In my opinion it's one of the coolest conferences that happen in the US and I might get to see my favorite political dreamboat Joe Biden speak!Read More
A few months ago, I met with Denise from Love Ding and talked about her on working on a office space re-do! She was on board and I was absolutely over the moon. I've known Denise for a while because she sells beautiful vintage or vintage inspired things, and I thoroughly enjoy buying those things. We're a match made in heaven.
When talking about the space I realized there were several things that were really important to me. My endgame here was to have a beautiful space, yes, but my larger goal was to create an area that would make me feel peaceful + rejuvenated while I was working.
The first word I came up with was harvest. I ordered my Giving Key necklace with the word inscribed on it and everything, but eventually it ended up feeling off in some ways. I still can't put my finger on exactly why, but it seemed to not imply the amount of work I was ready to put into 2017.
I agonized over the process for about a month and a half, and the breakthrough happened in Nicole of Write's Like a Girl's car. I told her my discontent with my word, and she asked if I wanted to see her short list for the year and there it was. Staring back at me on her iPhone in a note.Read More
Lately I've been thinking a lot about why I'm overwhelmed. I am overwhelmed. In my mind I'm over committed, I'm not doing things to the best of my availability, I feel stressed, and I feel like I have 100 pieces of china balanced on a safety pin.
Isn't it funny how sometimes our feelings lie?
Yesterday I was on a plane. My usual go to is to treat myself to whatever the airline movie is, but this plane didn't have any sort of television so I was sort of stuck. I was sitting between two rows of lap children so I knew I was going to need something to keep myself occupied. So I sat there and I started writing. I mapped out all the hours we have in a week.
I totaled up my weekly hourly commitments for things that were important and necessary. Things like work, passion projects, coffee, time with Tucker, and time by myself. Guess how many hours I had left over?
Way more than I thought I would.
Where does this idea come from? That I'm overworked to the point of constantly feeling drained? I asked myself this over and over for about forty five minutes.
Then I figured it out.
It comes from not working well and not working efficiently.
Working for myself was not exactly something I was prepared for and it hasn't been easy. I feel like I have this conversation once a week with someone, but just to put it out there -- I'm still figuring it all out.
I'm glad to have a direction to go in now. If you have any tips for working for yourself PLEASE let me know!